Empty Mirror.

Also known as: Boston.

This song has defined my life a few times over the years. 

It honestly has probably defined everyone's life at least once.

I think as humans we all have those moments where we feel as if no one knows us.

No one cares.

No one knows what it feels like to be hurt. to have a trial.

That this is just happening to me. 

You know how it feels to look at yourself in the mirror and not know who you are.

To stare back at that person and ask who is that?

Where have I gone?

Who took me? Why am I lost and broken? 

Where are the bright eyes and happy smiles that usually reflect back at me?

Everyone has moments of hardships of loosing "themselves" or searching to find who they truly "are".

Like in this song we usually want to run, to start over, to get out and to overcome whatever it is.

Throughout life this happens time and time again. Wether it be with just yourself, your friends, or your family. 

I have learned that during these times... the one person that I can always turn to is my Heavenly Father. It took me so long to turn to him first. To open up my heart and to cry to him.. 

I always knew I could pray and I always did pray.

I just didn't pray to him immediately when I needed help.

I wanted to do it on my own or at least try and fix myself.

I would sit and think.. who can I call? I would go through a list of friends and decide no. Then I would go through my family and decide no. and then all in all I finally got down on my knees and I prayed. I talked with my Heavenly Father. I told him what was wrong and how I felt, because he KNOWS how I feel. He truly knows. He listened to me and he comforted me. Just like everyone told me he would.

He was there, when I needed him most. When no one else was.

He pulled through. 

I have learned that time and time again he will do that.

Even on my weakest days, he still loves me. 

Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.

I am so grateful for the church that I have been raised in. 

I do not know where I would be. 

When I have those days where I feel like I am not myself. When I look in the mirror and see someone else staring back at me.. I remember who to turn to. 

I remember what to do. 

Life is hard, its supposed to be. After all the whole thing is a test right? 

Being a teenager and growing up has taught me that and along with that it has taught me that we have blessings on this earth to make it easier because God sees the bigger picture and he knew what we would need. He still knows what we need. 

I truly believe that and I know that with all my heart.

Little experience that bless my life every day just keep proving to me that this is the true church. 

I'm so grateful for it. 

-Madi Louise :)