Bullet Points of Thoughts.

• I figure if you wanted to hang out with me, you would text me and not just announce it on facebook. Actually, I'm not sure I want to hang out with you at all. So... its a good thing you won't text me anyways!
• I don't think I have ever danced that hard at a dance before. Best night ever!!
• I'm officially kind of married. Kind of.
• I change my mind on boys I could see myself liking frequently.
• I change my mind on colleges all the time. Each day I have a new college I want to go to. I'm not really the most decisive person!
• Stake Youth Conference has been amazing. 
• I love the pool and sunshine.
• I hate having free time. I never know what to do.
• TV stresses me out. I can't relax while watching it, My mind starts racing and I can't stop thinking about what I actually should or could be doing.
• Life goes by so fast.
• I'm 17.... weird.
• I'm fascinated with names recently. I love really different exotic...ish names.

Love, Madeliene Louise Knudsen the First.

Done....

I'm starting over.
I'm starting new.
I am doing something I have always wanted to do.
Since I am writing this down,
slash announcing it. (to myself)
I guess... I must follow through.
I don't know what else to do.
My head keeps spinning back to this one thought.
This one question.
This one move that could potentially do something for me.
I mean, it has to. or else why would these keep coming back?
Why would it keep coming back over and over again.
and why why why. Would I feel so strongly about this.
There has to be a reason.
That is the only answer I have to all my whys.
There has to be some reason.
One reason.
Many.
Few.
At least one..
This is it. This is my final and once and for all decision.
I am doing it.
Done.
............
Done..
Its a leap into the dark.
Its something I want to do.
and something I don't want to do.
I'm scared. I'm nervous.
I am sick of feeling like this.
Just.... go away.
But I know the only way this decision will go away is if I do this.
Why?
Fine. Bye. It's done.
I'm done argueing with myself and weighing out the options.

Love, Madi Louise
-Seriously and utterly confused.

Looking back.

& one day. 

When we are all grown up.

We'll look back & think to ourselves.

Think about our childhood & our teenage years. 

Our choices & decisions.

Our friends & family.

Our friendships & loved ones.

Our life.

& hopefully we'll look back & see no regrets.

We'll see happiness & the great things we had.

What a beautiful life... 

That's how I want to live my life.

So I can be one of those people who looks back

& remembers all the good,

all the things that were accomplished.

 How great that would be,

 to just look into the past.. remember.

and smile. :)

Love, Madi Louise.

I feel as if...

People are around me hurting and I can't necessarily do anything about it.
I want to help.. but how?
I'm not sure.
I just hope your okay.
I feel as if I lost a friend/friends that mattered.
But maybe they don't matter for a reason now?
Maybe things change for a reason.
Either on my part, your part, or probably both.
School is almost over. Literally. 27 days. and counting.
One year done. One year closer to college.
Senior year, here I come.
I just have to keep reminding myself to be motivated.
To let time have time.
Yes, in time everything will turn out right..
Well, how it is supposed to. :)

Toe Rings.

I love love love toe rings.

It hurts to dance in though. So I wore this for about two days.

Ignore my beat up dancers feet.

Anyways, I have always loved them.

Thats all.

Best. Toothpaste. Ever.

This toothpaste is unreal! Weird I know, but honestly it leaves your mouth feeling so minty clean!! I love it! I am really picky when it comes down to toothpaste. So trust me, it is so good! Try it if you want a "fresh breath up to 5x longer!" it really does work. Try it!! :)

Just a girl.

I would have to say I am just a average teenage girl trying to figure out life!
I love to write.
I love to write in my journal.
My friends got me into blogging and im slightly addicted... so i decided to make one of my very own!
There are a lot of things that make me... me.
But I would have to say that my friends and family are defiantley the best that I could have.
They are what get me through life.
They are always there for me and they always know what to say to me.
I love them.
I love to dance.
I am on ADC (Athena Dance Company). I love them to death! They are so inspiring and so much fun to be around! Dance is defiantley a huge part of my life and always has been for the past 13 years.
I have always taken ballet. I love ballet as well.
I love the church. It is the most amazing thing to me.
I really dont know who I would be if I didnt have it. I feel like everyday I learn something new and I realize what life is about.
Every day I strive to be a better person. and yes, sometimes I fail. okay alot of the time. But I always just want to be the best I can be!
I want to be like my grandma. I want to be like my leaders and parents and everyone in my life that is so strong and so happy!
I am so grateful for the wonderful examples I have.
I have the best of friends.
I have really been blessed.

So mainly, I started this just to write down what I feel. Get out what I am thinking and figure things out! I really do think writing helps and you can see things better once it is out of yourself. It feels better too! So why not huh? haha I am really excited!
Writing has always been a big part of my life. A struggle at times too. But over all I appreciate getting out my thoughts and feelings and feeling at ease in one way or another.
I am just a silly 16 year old girl who goes to American Fork High School.
I love the color pink.
You can always find me dancing.
I love my life and everyone in it!
Thank you to all of you who inspire and impress me everyday!
You truly make a difference in my life!

Love, Madeliene.