Bullet Points of Thoughts.

• I figure if you wanted to hang out with me, you would text me and not just announce it on facebook. Actually, I'm not sure I want to hang out with you at all. So... its a good thing you won't text me anyways!
• I don't think I have ever danced that hard at a dance before. Best night ever!!
• I'm officially kind of married. Kind of.
• I change my mind on boys I could see myself liking frequently.
• I change my mind on colleges all the time. Each day I have a new college I want to go to. I'm not really the most decisive person!
• Stake Youth Conference has been amazing. 
• I love the pool and sunshine.
• I hate having free time. I never know what to do.
• TV stresses me out. I can't relax while watching it, My mind starts racing and I can't stop thinking about what I actually should or could be doing.
• Life goes by so fast.
• I'm 17.... weird.
• I'm fascinated with names recently. I love really different exotic...ish names.

Love, Madeliene Louise Knudsen the First.

Anything?

I honestly feel as if life is just slipping through my fingers.

That I am sitting here and it is going.

I'm gazing out the window as the cars rush by.

I feel the warm sun in my hair as I lay by the pool.

I see a totally different perspective from down here.

I see people working.

I see people striving to be better.

To do better.

I see people who give up, who don't try at all.

Where am I in the mix of these people?

Who do I want to be and where am I going?

Can I actually have the desire to want and work for something in my life?

Yes, yes. I could.

I could do whatever I wanted.

Anyone.... can do what ever they want in this life.

ANYTHING!!! yes. I can do hard things.

I can, and I will.

and you know what?

If I can at least try, I'm sure anyone can too. 

Love, Madeliene.

-not to sure where that came from.

Life is good.

Recently...

1. Dad is headed to Australia. (for 2 weeks...)

2. Family is headed to Disneyland. (with out me, yes.)

3. Dance show is on Friday. (this means no one will be attending my show, yes.)

4. My Best Friend is coming. (her name is Amanda.)

5. I found out today that my old dancing buddy Camille is coming to visit!!!! (Yayy!!)

6. I made 100 cookies today and will be delivering them tomorrow. (hopefully they aren't too stale. I left them uncovered on accident...)

7. Frozen Yogurt tonight. (so yummy.)

8. When I start my wash, other people in my family seem to like to also. They also like to try and be helpful.. (2 of my loads got washed twice, and 1 didn't get washed at all.)
9. I'll be home alone for about a week. (with my awesome sssmommy (step mommy) for company most of the time.)
10. I love the girls in my ward.
11. Lexi caught a snake and likes to show me it.. (I only like tame snakes. This one disgusted me.)
12. How come boys I actually could like now, only liked me then. (I lost my chance obliviously.)
13. I think this is the first time in my life that I don't have a bunch of to do lists or sticky notes that haunt me every time I turn around. (I think I am not writing stuff down on purpose.)

Love, Madi Louise. (enjoying summer quite thoroughly.)

Quote of the day: "You can always be a better person today, than you were yesterday." (I actually did put this on facebook earlier today.) :)

So lets just say...

That I am a complete nerd.
Who goes and hangs out with a guy friend.
and plays monopoly all night.
while eating frozen yogurt.
Yes! That would be me.
The monopoly game lasted till 2 am.
Then I finally thought... oh maybe, just maybe I should go home.
It was a good game. Not really sure who won...
we handed money back and forth the whole time.
I was loaded and then he got it and then gave it back.
and repeat this situation a lot!
All in all it was a great night!
I liked just staying home and "chillin'"... Chillin' like a Villan! ;)
Oh yeah! hahah goodnight :)
P.S. Happy Easter.