You know when your so busy that you forget to eat?
You know when your so busy that all you want to do is eat?
You know that time when your so stressed out you can't do anything.
Your shaking because you have so much to do, but you don't know where to start.
You cry or don't cry but probably want to cry.
You waste your life away online because its better than facing reality.
You get your work done, but your making excuses.
The to do lists, the sticky notes, they keep piling up.
You catch yourself asking what day it is cause your thinking about all the stuff you have to do tomorrow, rather than what you have to do now. It feels like today is already over cause you've already thought about it so much yesterday.
It feels like this could go on forever.
It feels like you could never sleep. or never wake up.
You make one decision and regret it.
On the other hand..
You love life.
You love the time you get to spend with family, with friends, and to be at church.
You love the opportunity to bare your testimony, to go to the temple, to write a talk, or help someone.
You love dances, dancing, and the playing the piano.
You wish you could play all day long.
You wish you could loose yourself in the melody that somehow your hands can create.
You wish you could loose yourself in the feeling that dance creates for you. That you could express what you mean, with your body, all the time.
You wish people could look at you and understand you.
But most of all, you wish you could take one look at someone else and understand them.
I aspire to be the kind of person that others are for me.
I wish to inspire, like I am inspired daily.
I wish to serve a mission.
I wish to have a beautiful family one day. I wish to prepare for all of this now.
I wish to make decisions and to live with them happily.
I wish to look back with no regrets. For everything we do and choose has a purpose correct?
As I sit here overwhelmed with everything around me.
I realize that it is time to ground myself.
To push myself.
To focus myself.
To let myself feel what I feel.
If I want to do it, I'll do it.
If I don't, I won't.
If I want to try, I will.
If I want good grades, I'll get them.
If I want to make up for the lost years of piano and dancing, for lack of my own effort, I will.
I will not let what I didn't do, stop me from doing.
I will not criticize myself, or tear myself down.
I will live my life how I want to.
and I will succeed.
because I want to.
I sound like this girl who thinks she lives a hard life.
I don't. I have challenges like everyone else does.
But I am blessed because of them. Just like everyone else is.
I sound like some one who complains.
Maybe I do complain, but this is how I feel.
I feel happy. I feel sad. I feel different emotions.
I basically am the average teenage girl who can't understand herself.
but yet again, I do understand myself.
I'm off and on.
I'm either all there or completely away.
I'm either all for it or completely against it.
I'm a yes or a no, not a sure.
I'm just me and thats all I'll ever be.
You know when your so busy that all you want to do is eat?
You know that time when your so stressed out you can't do anything.
Your shaking because you have so much to do, but you don't know where to start.
You cry or don't cry but probably want to cry.
You waste your life away online because its better than facing reality.
You get your work done, but your making excuses.
The to do lists, the sticky notes, they keep piling up.
You catch yourself asking what day it is cause your thinking about all the stuff you have to do tomorrow, rather than what you have to do now. It feels like today is already over cause you've already thought about it so much yesterday.
It feels like this could go on forever.
It feels like you could never sleep. or never wake up.
You make one decision and regret it.
On the other hand..
You love life.
You love the time you get to spend with family, with friends, and to be at church.
You love the opportunity to bare your testimony, to go to the temple, to write a talk, or help someone.
You love dances, dancing, and the playing the piano.
You wish you could play all day long.
You wish you could loose yourself in the melody that somehow your hands can create.
You wish you could loose yourself in the feeling that dance creates for you. That you could express what you mean, with your body, all the time.
You wish people could look at you and understand you.
But most of all, you wish you could take one look at someone else and understand them.
I aspire to be the kind of person that others are for me.
I wish to inspire, like I am inspired daily.
I wish to serve a mission.
I wish to have a beautiful family one day. I wish to prepare for all of this now.
I wish to make decisions and to live with them happily.
I wish to look back with no regrets. For everything we do and choose has a purpose correct?
As I sit here overwhelmed with everything around me.
I realize that it is time to ground myself.
To push myself.
To focus myself.
To let myself feel what I feel.
If I want to do it, I'll do it.
If I don't, I won't.
If I want to try, I will.
If I want good grades, I'll get them.
If I want to make up for the lost years of piano and dancing, for lack of my own effort, I will.
I will not let what I didn't do, stop me from doing.
I will not criticize myself, or tear myself down.
I will live my life how I want to.
and I will succeed.
because I want to.
I sound like this girl who thinks she lives a hard life.
I don't. I have challenges like everyone else does.
But I am blessed because of them. Just like everyone else is.
I sound like some one who complains.
Maybe I do complain, but this is how I feel.
I feel happy. I feel sad. I feel different emotions.
I basically am the average teenage girl who can't understand herself.
but yet again, I do understand myself.
I'm off and on.
I'm either all there or completely away.
I'm either all for it or completely against it.
I'm a yes or a no, not a sure.
I'm just me and thats all I'll ever be.
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